I Know Him By Heart

She sat at her spacious desk - restless, sad and lonely. She'd put in such an effort to make her office feel as much like a happy, satisfied life as she could. Yet that was the last thing she felt at the moment.

Outside the sun didn't shine. It sat stubbornly behind the layer of grey that was the typical blanket for spring in the Northwest. She could barely wait for the first glimpses that spring was here. The first little buds trying desperately to fight their way to the roof of turf that kept them warm through the winter. The birds finding their way back to a home they left long ago, singing a song of joy to be back. And the frogs would croak out their midnight serenade. The frogs. When she heard the frogs she would know it was spring. And spring meant her life would be different. It had to be. It would be.

Still, she settled her restless heart as best she could. She wasn't sure yet why she felt the longing for someone tonight. She could normally get through her days with a nice little mask of indifference. If only they knew. If only they knew that ... maybe the do she thought. She's not that great of an actress - that's why she chose another profession. A profession she loved. A profession she threw herself into. She spent hours studying, training, being the best that she could be at her career. She knew, she was sure, that having a career would surely fill the void in her heart.

And yet she sat here staring out at the lake. The cool water rippled as the breeze flew past it, caressing the tops of the water. Teasing it, tempting it to move. She loved this lake. So peaceful. It should make her feel peaceful. It was, after all, why she'd come to visit so many years ago. She was drawn to the lake. Something made her want to be here, if only for a summer. 22 years later she was still here.

Wishfully she started humming a song. It was her song. The song she carried in her heart always. Where had she first heard it? It had been so many years and it had become her own personal reminder of what is to come. Someday.

I Know Him By Heart... (If you're brave enough)

There's a secret path I follow
To a place no one can find
Where I meet my perfect someone
I've kept hidden in my mind
Where my heart makes my decisions
'Till my dream becomes a vision
And the love I feel
Makes him real someday

'Cause I know he's out there somewhere
Just beyond my reach
Though I've never really touched him
Or ever heard him speak
Though we've never been together
We've never been apart
No we've never met
Haven't found him yet
But I know him by heart

Am I living in an illusion?
Wanting something I can't see
If I compromise, I'd be living lies
Pretending love's not meant to be
'Cause I know my heart's worth saving
And I know that he'll be waiting
So I'll hold on and I'll stay strong 'till then

'Cause I know he's out there somewhere
Just beyond my reach
Though I've never really touched him
Or ever heard him speak
Though we've never been together
We've never been apart

No we've never met
Haven't found him yet
But I know him by heart
No we've never met
Haven't found him yet
But I know him by heart