That I would regret the decision I just made.
In case you're not actively following along with my life change, let me fill you in. I'm now starting the 8th week working with hypnosis. To date I've lost only 9 lbs. I'm 100% sure it's because I'm just not getting to the gym.
For my second personal recording I asked the hypnotist to really drive home the working out idea. That particular hyptnotist and the recording stunk. I lost an entire week basically because I requested a new recording. "Waste" being all relative that is.
I still made good, sound, healthy eating choices, but just wasn't getting to the gym. Finally the second recording in hand I was sure I'd start getting to the gym. I've had it for 4 days now and haven't gone once. More on that later.
It's been 7 weeks since I've had fast food. My past life was full of fast food. I had it 4 - 6 times a week, easily. Now 7 weeks later, none. (Side note: the one exception is having to grab something very quickly before a show I had no other choice but to have a small cheeseburger).
This weekend, I decided to give in. I hadn't done a good job planning for dinner and it was later than normal for me to eat. I was starving. I decided I wanted a grilled cheese from a local fast food place. I gave in to fries too.
The moment I started eating I knew that I'd regret this. Not having that much fat in my system for so long - my insides were not going to like it. And I was right. I'll save you the details, but my stomach rocked and rolled for a couple of days.
What did I learn, or rather prove? That when you take something like that out of your life, it's a good thing. Bringing it back in is not going to be good. My body just wasn't accustomed to that amount of fat now. And THAT is a good thing. I proved to myself that having it out of my life is the right answer.
I'm back to eating healthy...and am starting a new gym that will hopefully help get me motivated. We shall see.
1 comments:
I can totally relate to this feeling.
Over the past few years I have been struggling with eating. For me it's not a problem of eating too much or the wrong food, but not eating enough. I'm not actively choosing to not eat, but rather stress turns off the trigger in my brain that say, "you're hungry." So as 7pm rolls around eat day, I realize I have not eaten even a single bite of food and my self preservation, rational size of thinking kicks in. I know I need to eat and so I do... even though I'm still not hungry.
Once I do eat, without fail, I regret it. My body, not used to the foods, rebels.
If nothing else, over the past two years I have learned that my body is extremely routine based, and when I throw it off that routine it doesn't hesitate to protest.
Keep going Jenn, stick to the healthy foods and re-train your body to keep the good routines that it craves. I'm pulling for you. :-)
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